to all of you

to all of you who know me
better than i will ever care to
know myself

help me see through pretenses
set up to mask reasons why i
left my past

have i been running away from myself
or am i still trying to find who i am
in either case
i haven’t a trace
of success yet

no shovel of mine digs this deep
without the right tools, how can i get
to the root

this question needs answering
i don’t have a clue but im hoping you
you do